I'm avoiding working on a paper that is due tomorrow. But at the same time, I think I'm a little hung up on some emotional baggage related to this paper and another one I recently got back in a different class. For the paper due tomorrow we had to turn in a rough draft about two weeks ago. We also had to meet with a writing tutor to go over our rough draft. I really didn't like the writing tutor. She seems fairly irresponsible. So I thought I would meet with the professor for help on my paper. That went horrible. I loved this professor, I loved the class. But after meeting with her... I felt... like everything came out wrong and that now she probably thinks completely different of me, which I'm getting stuck on. I'm worried she thinks I was too judgement of my writing tutor, but I honestly didn't feel like the writing tutor pushed my writing at all. I didn't feel like she had anything constructive to say that I didn't already have in mind, not to mention I felt like I had to lead the conversation... which... when you're looking for general guidance... isn't always helpful. I also don't feel like a writing tutor should tell you to do anything, and I felt like she told me to leave stuff out... Didn't pose it as a question... "Do you think you should leave that out because of the level of relevancy to your thesis?" I mean, I suppose she did ask a question, and I was already biased against her (what kind of writing tutor loses your paper?), and I just didn't hear it. I had been really, really looking forward to working with the tutors, especially since at my last school I wanted to become one and had taken one of the two courses required but then left the school... But when meeting with my professor, I felt like she didn't see anything wrong with the writing tutor and it was all my prejudices. But I still feel I had valid opinions that I probably didn't voice properly with my professor. I'm struggling with this. I feel ill equipped to write my paper now. Not to mention, I got a paper back from other class today and didn't do as well as I had hoped, and I put a lot of work into that one and had a successful meeting with the TA for that class... Soo.... If I have a good meeting about my writing and still can't do well, what's going to happen with a bad meeting...?

Bah.. Sorry for the rambling.. But I was hoping if I just got all of this out, I'd feel better and maybe be able to start writing. It's not so much writer's block as just feeling a little stuck and on the verge of despairing... I haven't talked to anyone about it because, well, I figured actually talking about this with someone would cause me to get emotional and then really mess up my head.... Okay, going to try to write now. Please don't be too harsh in your responses, I'm a little fragile at the moment...

Thanks all