Dear Anika, don't know how I do this but can "put" issues away somewhere, like they don't exist, when I know nothing can be done or right before something has to be done. Then make a quick final assessment, decision & go with it. Try to go with gut feeling.
Is this healthy, I don't know... But that's just me.
Really sorry you are having to suffer in silence on this one. Will say a prayer of wisdom & peace for you.
Please take care of you!!