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Originally Posted by learning1
I was having a really hard time two sessions ago. Really, really thought t was saying my issues weren't important   . I was really prepared to have to end therapy (after all this time trying!) and pretty depressed about it.
But I also know t says he wants me to tell him when I'm upset about stuff and he's nice to me when I do. And that's what happened at yesterday's session. He really loaded on the compliments. Generally, I eat up compliments. I'm too embarrassed to say much, 'cept maybe thank you, but it feels good. So now life is all happy again  . Like MKAC said, I'm like the character who said " I'm good enough, I'm smart enough, and by golly, people like me!" Except, Why does therapy have to have SUCH A HUGE IMPACT ON MY MOODS??? It is really weird having this big a shift in how I interpret stuff in one day. And something tells me it'll just happen again.
Besides that, I'm embarrassed about the compliments, and nervous that they mean therapy is going to get harder. I'm afraid when he's nice, I let my guard down and let him know too much. Sigh. I know I'm supposed to trust him, but two days ago I hated him.
Has anyone else had this much of a confusing swing in feelings about your therapist? Was it hard to trust your t after it? |
Right there with you. Therapy can send me soaring or crashing. Two sessions I shared some really deep stuff I've never shared before and T thanked me and told me it took a lot of courage to do that. I felt great even though it was really hard to do. Next session I completely crashed when she pushed fairly hard about the stuff from the session before. I felt a like I never wanted to share again. I never know what to expect after a session. I've had to start scheduling so I don't have to go back to work afterward because I can't go back acting like a zombie.
And thanks for the Stuart Smalley quote.
I accidentally brought that up with T one day. T wanted to talk about working on self-esteem and I started laughing in my head and then I blurted out "I'm sorry, but all I can think about is the Stewart Smalley skit from SNL."
I was laughing. I hope she wasn't offended. That's just how my mind works sometimes - in TV and movie quotes.