My pdoc who is also my therapist will be home sometime this weekend. She went to florida for a conference for a week. My mom has also been gone for over two weeks to visit my grandpa in Florida who has a house down there(he goes down there for the winter months). I was supposed to go with her but at that time I was manic and didn't want to go for fear that I would end up in the hospital down there. On the bright side of not going there was that we were able to adjust my meds and make it possible for me to get out of the manic stage. I'm not sure why I want to cut. My mom is coming home tonight so that should a relief. I also have felt like crying a lot. My nerves are shot and I'm thinking of texting my pdoc but I don't want to scare her so I don't know what to do.