life 4 years after divorce and it still sucks and getting worse...

no companion, no friends, don't have kids enough, no stability, no job, ugly, fat, no talent, no life, no money, etc

my ex wasted almost $100,000 of my saved money while we were married... plus since he took me to court 4 years ago, my family and I lost a lot more money and now we may go bankrupt...

the glass top on my stove in my condo broke because I got burned and dropped a heavy pan on it and it cracked, the washing machine is broken somehow and won't spin, I lost all power last night, my son had to do his homework by candlelight, and while I was on the phone with the electric company he burned a 2" x 2" hole in the carpet and now that is ruined

I apply everywhere and to several jobs a day for the past few years and nothing... what am i going to do...