</div></font></blockquote><font class="post"> Still to this day I am amazed I survived both incidents because I was surely meant to die.

I'm just grateful for today....and all the tomorrows ahead of me. And I cross my fingers hoping that those experienced are in the past and will never be in my future.

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I know I was meant to live.
I tried to kill myself a few times also I believe we are meant to live so we can be of help to someone else. So you are alive because you are meant to be.