So Monday will be my first session after my T's vacation - and after my embarrassing "I need you so much and have no idea to make it through the time without you and I'm always jealous of the other clients and your boyfriend" e-mail (I feel worst about the boyfriend part.) And even though she already briefly responded and assured me that everything's okay, I feel terrible and once again have no idea how to act around her. I just want to disappear into the floor, basically. I wish I could just cancel, but that wouldn't feel right either. UGH. I cringe at the memory of that e-mail, at the thought of having to look her in the eyes. I'm nervous, scared, uncomfortable.