It's going to be okay. I have these exact same doubts and thoughts when I contact my T but it's just our fears, not reality. That's way easier said than believed, though. But your T does not hate you or think you are bothering her. How do you mean you know where you stand with her and can move on? I hope you aren't saying you need to move on completely because I would safely say that's 99.9999% not true I really hope you hear from her soon.