I guess I don't exactly get it because both you and I were considering walking out the door (if I understood your post right where you wondered if you could do it better on your own). But maybe you weren't considering it too seriously? I wound up trusting my therapist, or the process of therapy, too, for now at least, because i didn't walk out the door, but I seriously considered it.

I guess the reason I felt I hated him was because I felt he couldn't accept me for who I am after I told him some pretty personal stuff (and I have high standards for "acceptance" from a t). And that's the same reason I would have trouble trusting him. I guess I'm thinking of trusting him to care and accept me.

It feels yucky saying I hated him now. But I'm pretty afraid it'll happen again and maybe trying to understand it will make it not as bad.