i went and got my hair cut i like it.i got 3 new winter jackets,one leather,one wool dress jacket and a parker all for only $40.so i would say for the most part i have had an ok day but it is now night time and the thoughts are creeping back in so going to take my pills and go to sleep.

CANT i would love to feel safe to ask her but i doubt i will but who knows.i have this huge pull to be able to share some of my past with her but i havnt figured out how to do this and have it be ok i dont even know how to begin