I should probably also explain that when I crash from a session or something else, I crash very fast and really really hard for about 12-24 hours. I completely isolate and my thoughts are not very clear or logical. Then I slowly start to climb back into life and start thinking about what happened. So right now I am getting back to a level where I am thinking clearly about that session and really processing what happened.

This thread has actually been incredibly helpful to me in processing. Thank you for posting it.