Whenever I have a session when I feel somewhat close or trusting toward my therapist, I can pretty much bank on feeling a swing to the opposite extreme. I find myself pushing her away and believing that she really doesn't care and she can't possibly like me. I find myself trying to convince myself (pretty easy to do initially) that any positive comments or approach from her was untrue and a ploy. I'd push her away and convince myself that she really didn't care about me! I'd tell myself that she really can't like me! I'm a pain! I"m a bother. She must be disgusted with me and my neediness!" Over time, I've learned that this is me! It is inside my head and it's my distortion of any attempt I have to get close to anyone.Hang in there, the words racing around in your head aren't true and they aren't reality. They are there to keep you stuck and confined behind a wall.