Oh, I see, I understand that. I also trusted my parents for physical and financial wellbeing. I 'spect I have an assumed level of trust for my t (and for people in general) that isn't there for some people whose parents didn't take care of the physical safety and material needs. So when I say I wasn't trusting him it might not be the same level of distrust that some people think of. I just meant I didn't trust him to accept me because he was pushing me to tell my sister irl some of the things I wrote in the letter and he wasn't understanding (or even asking) why I said (several times) that I couldn't even come close to doing that.