Just feeling it.

I see the psychiatrist tomorrow morning. Although sessions with this one (the consultant) are a lot easier than with the psychiatrist I saw initially, I'm still nervous about it. I don't know what i am going to say to him. My moods are up and down like a yoyo. I'm so reactive and it is hard to deal with.
Then on Wednesday afternoon I see my T. Part of me is looking forward to seeing him, but part of me again doesn't know what to say. I want to have made progress, I want to please him, but again I am so up and down and it's hard for me to gain the big picture.
Elder daughter (14) flies off to Tenessee tomorrow to her competition. I'm pleased for her and am sure she will have a wonderful time, but the nerves (about performing) hit her badly today and I find it hard that she is nervous. She's still my baby and I want to make it all OK for her.
Work is still manic and I haven't really written out detailed notes yet for the lessons I will be missing to see the psychiatrist.
I'm overtired and overstretched and trying not to whine. All this will pass, I know, but it does weigh heavy right now.

On the positive side, the team were apparently all thrilled with the t-shirts i made for them, which was good. We also managed to solve the problem of transporting the scenery by loaning out my fencing bag, which was another good thing. And H is taking daughter to school tomorrow for the departure - I'm pleased about that as she leaves at 6am from her school - half an hour's drive away. H has offered to do it as otherwise I would be taking her over, returning home, and then returning to the same place within half an hour for my own day's work!
This too shall pass....