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Old Mar 03, 2012, 10:46 AM
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Originally Posted by lostmyway21 View Post
I just thought it was interesting to add that I emailed my T this morning, and said I was worried because I thought he was mad at me for something I said to him yesterday. He said, "I'm NOT mad, I do NOT get mad at you, I am your therapist." I guess that clears things up a bit.
That wouldn't be reassuring to me. The therapy relationship is unique but it's still a relationship, and I don't think it's healthy for either party to completely discount the possibility of the therapist experiencing anger toward the patient at some point in the relationship, especially in long term therapy. I think a healthy T is very much aware of his feelings and his reactions, and he allows himself to experience all of them as they arise, so that he can figure out where they're coming from and use them as a guide to his future behavior. I think when a T rejects the possibility of ever feeling anger toward a patient because he is a T, he leaves himself vulnerable to potentially harmful counter-transference reactions, because no one becomes immune to anger just because he or she has a degree and a license to treat people with mental health issues. It's not wrong or bad for a T to feel anger toward a patient in certain circumstances, and I think a T who says that he doesn't get angry because he's a T gives his patients the message that it's not only possible but actually desirable to eliminate certain feelings based on the context of a relationship. I know my T wouldn't tell me he doesn't get angry because he's a T. He would tell me (and has told me) that it takes a lot longer for him to feel anger or frustration toward patients than toward some other people in his life for a couple of reasons -- the first is that he understands our struggles and our behaviors as being learned and in some cases necessary for our survival, so it's easier to step back and feel compassion rather than anger. The second is that there is (or should be) just enough professional distance in the relationship to prevent him from becoming too vulnerable to having his own buttons pushed in the way that close friends or family members sometimes manage to do. But, my T is still human, and he is capable of experiencing all emotions in every relationship, including ours. One of the things we should all learn in therapy is that all feelings are acceptable, and it's how we handle them that matters most.
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Conversation with my therapist:

Doc: "You know, for the past few weeks you've seemed very disconnected from your emotions when you're here."
Me: "I'm not disconnected from my emotions. I just don't feel anything when I'm here."
(Pause)
Me: "Doc, why are you banging your head against the arm of your chair?"
Doc: "Because I'm not close enough to a wall."

It's official. I can even make therapists crazy.
Thanks for this!
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