Oh, Jesus. I regret this so much.

When I was in a state of hypomania, I was trying to sleep in a bed next to a lot of people, including a guy who had a girlfriend. He started touching me, but we did not have sex. I was not a good friend of his girlfriend's at that time, but I am now. She forgave me, and I would NEVER do it when I'm normal.

A friend of mine did the same thing with my boyfriend and I felt terrible.

But I still feel a bit guilty, like I could have stopped it. Also when I was manic I drank too much and vomited on my "to-be-boyfriend"s jacket. He took it pretty well, but I think he was manic too! We also drove while touching each other, which I am really ashamed of, and I drove a night with alcohol in my blood.

I'm not dying of shame, but it still surprises me what I did and sometimes it's like I have black holes in my memory, and then suddenly remember what I actually did while manic. Anyone else experiencing this?