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Originally Posted by ImMentallyILL
My negative thoughts told me to get rid of my psychiatrist who means everything to me and I did.
It would hurt me inside and feel like I was letting my psychiatrist down if I reported bad news, she is the sweetest most caring person I've ever met I just had to get rid of her because I don't want to get better and I wasn't doing it for myself.
I reached the point where I don't want to get treatment, the only reason I would want to get better is to prove to her I can do it and someday meet with her when I'm finally cured and she will be so proud of me.
Is it wrong if I use her for a reason to keep going in life?
Do any of you feel like you have to get better because you don't want to let your therapist down?
Should I tell my old psychiatrist about why I left and how I used her to keep going?
Should I tell my new psychiatrist these things because I'm pretty sure I don't want treatment? I know I'm making a mistake but I reached that point where I had enough ! I can't make pretend anymore I want to get worse !
I don't have it in me anymore I given up, she will be the only reason for me to keep going but doctors have already told me that's wrong.
Can any of you relate to my story, what should I do? Sorry for the negative thread …
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Doctors always prefer you to get well for your own sake.
But I say, at this stage you need all the motivation you can get.
As you improve you'll start wanting things for yourself.
In the meantime, it doesn't matter what's keeping you alive as long as
something does.
Now as I hear it, there is nothing wrong with your former psychiatrist except that you feel guilty for not getting better.
You ask for my advice, and here it is:
I advise you to back to your old psychiatrist and tell her what you've just told us.
I apologise if this comes across as a lecture.
Good luck with whatever you decide!