No, I have never really talked about any of it. There are so many different things, a lot that I don't even understand. I had started seeing a counsellor, and I am waiting to see if I can get govt assistance to help with the fees to continue seeing her. Here at PC is the 1st time I have ever been so open, so revealing about myself, and while it is so scary and I want to hide and pretend it is not me making these posts, being able to write about what is going on has been really helpful, especially when I get such great support from you and the others here. Thanks for that, and maybe someday I will be able to actually face the PAIN that is buried so deep inside of me. xxx Irish
p.s. urges not acted on! Yay! distraction (tidying up living room)worked very well!!!