I like you, Rainbow, and I'm sure lots of other people here like you too.
How involved are you with people in real life on a regular basis? Do you have either a paying job or a volunteer position, or some kind of regular, structured routine that interests you and helps you feel good about yourself? In the right environment, those experiences can provide both a distraction from the intensity of your feelings toward your T and the opportunity for new relationships, so you're not always relying on only a couple of people. You may need to make some changes in your life so that you can get your needs met in ways that your H and your T can't do for you.