Dear T,

Maybe a year ago when we were talking about our relationship you asked me whether I ever wished for things like our being able to go out to dinner like friends. I responded truthfully no and explained that I understood that our relationship only worked within the confines of your office (and emails and occasional phone calls) and that I didn't want to be friends because I knew that this would take away the specialness of our relationship. We have our two allotted hours together a week and rarely do close friends get to see each other with this regularity nor can a friend always be a phone call away like you are to me and focus on my problems. But recently I've been wishing that somehow we could spend the weekends together since i tend to struggle so much at these times. Of course this is totally unrealistic, but I'd love for you to move in with me for a weekend and just always be there with me in the background - we'd be able to talk over meals and more important, you'd help me to stay on task with everything that I need to accomplish and have been putting off. You'd give me encouragement when my mood dipped, not let me crawl into bed to escape the world... You do a little of this because you will call me (though usually we talk after I'm already down and have reached out to you because I'm stuck). I think I might bring this "fantasy" up on Tuesday. The strange part about it is that I realize in thinking about it that I'm not looking for us to talk and talk like therapy session, just for us to be together and you to help me get what I need to accomplished as I fall farther and farther behind in all my professional and personal tasks...

Love you.