Hey Strange

I've noticed this tendency in myself as well. I think sometimes pain, even though it does hurt, is somehow comfortable to me because it's familiar. It gives me a built in excuse to stop trying to improve as well, because what's the point if I'm just going to feel bad again? Self-sabotage maybe.

Have you heard of anger addiction? Some people get a rush from feeling angry, it gives them a sense of power and validation that they might be missing. It feels good to feel right, I suppose.

Just my thoughts
Spyder