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Old Mar 04, 2012, 10:11 AM
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Originally Posted by rainbow8 View Post
I think about my T less when I'm busy with other activities, but she's still there, all the time, in my mind. Not in a bad way, except that I am terribly afraid that I would become depressed if she died.

I'm not trying to be defensive. If I had a full-time job I'd probably be better off, but at this point in my life I'm not looking for one.
You are in therapy at the moment! That is a job. If you were in school/taking classes, would you fret that you were thinking about them/their subjects instead of doing something else? No, I don't think you would.

The difference between therapy and some other class is that therapy is about the relationship between you and your therapist; that's the material, the lesson, the work you are doing. So, you have to focus on the other and/or your material in your life. In your case, Rainbow, that you focus on your therapist is also your material!

You know your relationship with your T is every evolving and changing; why are you "stopping" at this moment and looking only at it instead of the whole?
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Thanks for this!
Chopin99, rainbow8