Perna, your reply makes me feel better too! Yeah, I wish I could go for a PhD in "Relationship between me and my T" I'd do SO much research about it, LOL!!

Why am I looking at one aspect now? I can't stop thinking about the erotic transference article. I think I have OCD because something that triggers me is hard for me to "get rid of". The words affected me because they are true for me and I don't like it! I keep repeating that like a broken record; I'm sorry. I don't want to "want to know" about my T because I want to "be in her life" but it fits me! I HATE that it fits me. My T would say it's just a part focusing on this, not ALL of me. But that part is why I need therapy! My Self isn't soothing that part enough yet. Most of my parts want to curl up next to my T forever even though we have worked on holding the baby and the child, and accepting the teenager. It's not enough so I am feeling like I'm going to feel like I do forever.