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WeepingWillow - Thank you. I will try to find your post on "bipolar." Also, I will google psycheducatio.org. I really am not well informed about Bipolar Disorder. For so long that was not my official diagnosis. So I focused on learning about managing depression. Your mention about the historical use of the term, Bipolar, I found very interesting.
As with other posters above, I am grateful when anyone is willing to share this problem of becoming majorly disorganized when depressed. "Slob" isn't a very nice work and I never expected others to apply it to their own situation. I am touched that you and others here are willing to be so bluntly honest. I suppose we all know the very disheartening disappointment and demoralization that comes when we lose capabilities that we otherwise do have.
I too have been diagnosed as having OCD type traits. When I am organized, I can be super-organized. So the swing of the pendulum is quite broad. Now and then, I think our own insights are as valid as anyone's, including the pdoc's. Sometimes, I think that it takes tremendous energy and focus to maintain being in the "UP/OCD" mode. It's like I've got a "white-knuckle grip" on things. Perhaps, that level of psychic intensity is just not indefinitely sustainable, and eventually collapses out of energy depletion. (Just a thought.) The bedrock under all this, in my opinion, is some kind of anxiety problem. When I'm "Up," I develop nervous ticks. So getting depressed seems to be a way of getting some much needed relaxation.
Thank you also for sharing about how the feed back you get from others can be hurtful and very unhelpful. I've got my "timer" beside me here at the desk. It keeps me conscious of how I am using my time. It's kind of like using cash, instead of credit cards, to go shopping. My time management skills, when I am down, are horrendous . . . not great when I'm up, either.
I never expected to get such understanding responses as I've gotten here. Trying to manage DEPRESSION is just too vast a goal. I'm having more success breaking it down into managing getting some chores done. In that, I have been much helped by this thread.
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