I am having one of those times in my life when i want to go back to school.
I just dont know what to do, at the moment i have the crappest job working for a loan broker and im slowly turning into a robot!
i sit at my computer every bloody day even saturdays 9-6pm and listen to people moaning that they have no money to pay the bills or needing a payday loan because they want a night out, many of the people that phone dont even speek english!

I mean there has to be more to life than this! i never wanted this job in the first place! but because jobs are so low on the ground i took it, but i was ready for quiting on the 3rd day!

I NEED TO DO SOMTHING FUN BUT INTRESTING just a simple college course where it will get me a decent job, where im happy and not have stupid targets to reach.

A little bit of back ground history first i was a child minder but after a break down i left i was unemployed for 2 years but then got a great job working for a debt mangement company, until they made 30 of us redundant, i resently found out that they were re-hiring so i reaplyed for my job, only now to find out i dont match their criteria!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I find it hard seatling in to new places always have done and always been seen as the weaker member of the group. the simplest thing can set me off in to a panic attack, thinking that ive let my team down.

i always do my best what ever job i do but it never seems good enough and i always seem to get kicked out

one child care job i was at, the manager turned round to me and said in my personal development interview that she hated the sight of me and that i was fired! she made me take my uniform top off there and then and sent me home half naked! i had to walk home and luckly i took my coat. my parents were devestated that she did this to me and set up a meting with her the next day. she informed my parents that i was a horable person and that i should have been drowned at birth!
we reported her to ofstead but she is still manager of the childcare nursery!

and now im lost again i dont have a clue where i stand in the world!