Thank you for your honesty. It's not necessarily negative;I think we all wonder the same thing at times.
For me, I really don't know if I should keep having hope or if I'm wasting my and T's time. It's more the depression that goes along with the DID that has me stuck. I have no desire to "integrate", but wouldlike to loose some of the dangerous behaviors. DBT doesn't help me at all. I AM very lucky that I have the T I do.
I guess we'll keep putting one foot in front of the other for the time being. I hope you do too.