Hi,
I am sorry to hear that you are sad and hurting so much. I do not believe your problem is trivial at all. If you still love him, only cant change the situation, it sounds like you are still grieving. I think everyone is different when it comes to the end of a relationship. Some people recover quickly, and others, myself included, have a very difficult time "moving on" with our lives. I agree with ozzie, that perhaps a therapist would be good for you, just to have someone to talk to and to help you cope with your loss.

Peace~ CHRIS

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