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Originally Posted by granite1
THINGS IM SCARED OF
feeling all those feelings again when i realized this wasnt ok
what will T think of me and my part in it
will it make any difference in how i can function at all in life if i talk about it
T-reaction,i dont know what i want from T in telling her.i dont want her to be completely repulse by me ,i dont want her to be OMG that is horrible either.i dont want her to not react either i dont know what i want and what if her reaction makes things worse.
what if speaking it makes things worse.
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She will not be repulsed. Guaranteed. She will have infinite empathy for you. She won't think negatively of you or about your part in it. You were not responsible for the abuse. You were a child. The child is
never responsible. The adult
always is. Always. Your T will know this and will certainly reassure you about that.
Whether you'll feel better or worse is a individual thing. Ultimately, you'll feel better, but you may indeed feel worse at some points, just like you do whenever you're working on something hard in therapy.
You have support here, Granite, any time you want it. I wish you strength and peace.