Really? So it's not just me being a prude or oversensitive then? At the time I just remember thinking "really....that's a new fact about sex I didn't know....although I think I'm too young to be worrying about all that....I wonder why she's asking me it's a bit OTT for the situation" I wasn't embarrassed or horrified....I knew about boys and sex and had been aware of feelings although the reality of it in my life was something way in the future....
I just think....I went there to talk about my family problems and social anxiety....she did have a tendency to go a bit deeper than needed although in the main I really liked her....thought a lot of her and felt I could tell her things....I did have some kind of therapeutic bond with her at the time (bear in mind I was only a very young teenager), in an older relative who really cares about me kind of way which is why I would never have wanted to think badly of her....if that makes any sense....
She could still though have been asking incase I had any concerns regarding sex that I felt unable to talk to anyone about.....so by asking those questions...she might have been letting me know it was a situation where I could talk about it (ie teenagers get pregnant and scared to tell their family or they get pressured into sex they're not ready for by an older boyfriend....and again they wouldn't want their family to know...she'd had a few sessions with me and I'd talked about my family and my anxiety and she knew me to be quite a painfully shy naive young thing.....I suppose...maybe she was worried I'd be in a situation I couldn't handle and with my mom being unwell (she had some kind of intense depression and was in her own bizarre world, she knew it would have been impossible to talk to at the time, my only other option would have been friends who were other 13 and 14 year olds....) so maybve that's why....I don't know why this has been playing on my mind recently.
Then again when I left her office I was half thinking "wow, didn't know boys could get an erection just from kissing a girl" and the other half thinking "why does she think he wouldn't get one with me....and anyway....I thought kissing was just a nice romantic thing at the end of a date...not sure I want to be worrying about that stuff yet...."
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