Anger is tricky.

When my therapist was gone for a week, I felt just fine about it. We talked about it because I also had some strange behavior before she left. But I was fine! I was very glad that she was going away, having a whole week for herself. She rarely takes a full week, and I feel very fortunate about that. But... so what was the other stuff about then?
When we explored it more, I realized that my feeling good about her going away had felt like 'graciousness' or 'generosity'. When I explored that, I realized it was more like I was "forgiving". I was forgiving her for going away. So that implies I was angry, although it is nearly impossible for me to realize or to acknowledge when I am angry, unless I am in an uncontrolled anger. Anyway, that was an interesting couple of sessions!