She wants me to be Independent, but I feel as though that might conflict with my goals if I had too many responsibilities at once. I want to go to grad school but I have a history, where, if too much is put on me at once i kind of get depressed. So this is freaking me out. Plus, I know that if I cannot achieve this goal of grad school, that my salary will be meagar (psych major here), and i'll hate myself forever.

Plus i feel like she is pushing me into the realm of isolation, loneliness, depression and suicidal thoughts by trying to make me independent. Since that's what I associate with being alone. It doesn't feel like a loving act on her part.

It feels like my relationship with my mom has deteriorated as of late....