Quick time line: I was diagnosed with bipolar disorder about 14 years ago. For the last 12 years I have been absolutely out of control, outgoing, fearless, and the like. During that time I was a raging drug addict and alcoholic. The next year or so I started to slow down and try to get a grip on things. As I started the process of getting clean and sober I started to notice major anxiety and an inability to function in society. What I mean by that is that I felt so uncomfortable around people that I wanted to either pass out or lash out (lashing out is normal for me, but became extreme).

Next I got diagnosed as bipolar with ocd, about 6 months ago. That started to make sense to me because of all my rituals and phobias. With all this going on I completely stopped all drugs and alcohol on 10/11/11. To do this I quit my job and rid myself of everyone I knew. Now I can't go out of the damn house. I've only left the house once, so far, to go to my psychiatrist, which was 4 days after I got clean. I am about to run out of medication and made an appointment to see the doc this Tuesday. Thinking about leaving the house is paralyzing me, just the thought. I know I have to go!

As a side note: I have always, for the most part, been aggressive, have driven so many people away from me, alienated a large part of my family, and have just been a mess.

My question: am I becoming agoraphobic or is this something else?

I was trying to keep it short, so feel free to ask me anything I may have left out and I know I am going to the doc in 2 days but not knowing now is hell.