For sure I'm jumping in! Wow, you're brave to do this, and your T sounds really special to do it with you. What your father did sounds very traumatic. I do want to say, though, that fathers do that sort of thing with their kids. I was always afraid of the daring things my H did with our kids while I was praying in the background. They want to play rough and take chances. He probably didn't realize you'd be scared since he was holding you. I never wanted my kids to climb up the slide by themselves but my H let them. I hope it goes well for you tomorrow. You'll be SAFE with your T beside you!!