I haven't done anything near what you guys have done but I get all delusional while manic. I do spend a bit more money but not thousands of dollars. I get these racing thoughts as well. Once I was in an art store (I am an artist) and bought a pastel set that was several hundred dollars. I really haven't even used it even though I got it several years ago. I got other supplies as well. Even things I really don't even use. Also during this I thought my art was going to bring me hundreds of millions of dollars and I would be the next big thing. I was even thinking of where I would move and what kind of house I would buy. I thought I would be getting a huge mansion with all my hundreds of millions of dollars and help the poor and autism societies. I am also autistic after all. I am never interested in sex even while manic. I know that is the opposite of what most of you are. I have 0 sex drive. I am 29 and never truly had sex with the exception of one close call when someone attempted to rape me. So that was the closest to sex as I would ever be. I am still not interested at 29. A few times I had racing thoughts about being naked but still had enough control where I didn't go out naked and do all these things the people in my head were telling me to do. Some days I don't sleep at ALL. I don't know if that is just insomnia or part of the mania. The thing is that sometimes I get that when I am depressed as well sometimes during a psychotic break. I had a time recently that I didn't sleep for 36 hours and had a small psychotic break. I thought my mom would kill me. After the hour or two long episode I knew it wasn't true. Insomnia triggers psychotic breaks in me. With me I either sleep for 0-2 hours a day or 12-14 hours with still being tired. Hardly anything in between even if doing well. I sometimes talk real fast when manic and no one is able to keep up with me. There are times where I believe I am impervious to harm as well while manic. With me its mainly the delusions that get me more than anything else. Right now I have a stupid cold and I hate it!!! Also while manic/ hypomanic (I get more hypomanic than manic though) I feel like talking to my friends in the middle of the night. Once again I had some control over it. I just had so much energy that I wanted to talk to my friends at 4 AM. So, that is what my mania / hypomania is like. Not nearly as severe as all of yours. I feel for you all.
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