I want to push you and everyone else away. I don't want to feel like a burden. I'm trying to be there for other people because they're upset but I'm upset too and that doesn't seem to count, it's not paranoia, I've been told I don't need support as much as anyone else because I should be used to it, I should be de-sensitised. I'm not and the day I am then I am no longer a human being, I'm a robot