i've always been very emotional, especially when i wasn't stable (bipolar). as much as i hate it, i've always been kind of a "hopeless romantic". i don't think that's going to change. i guess my body (or mind) is exhausted from all the extreme ups and downs, so when my 4 1/2 year relationship ended, i got desensitized. i loved it and still love it. i was able to plan for myself, my own future, and start motivating and stay motivated. being the unfortunate "hopeless romantic" i am, when a guy came along who seemed good-more importantly stable i got in a relationship, but stayed detached. he had been making efforts and compromises, so i decided to open up just a little bit more. and now i'm at the point that i was trying so hard to stay away from.
i have not been this upset with myself in such a long time, because i thought the breakup was the reason i'm in such a deep hole; but i thought about it and i had a long and exhausting week already and this was the cherry on top.

i have felt/have been feeling so many negative emotions all at once this weekend, i didn't know what to do. thankfully i didn't get to the worst state, but i feel like it won't be a better result if this happens again.

i'm wondering if anyone has felt all these emotions at once (anger,sadness,frustration,resentment, self-loathe,etc.etc.) and if you did, how did you cope with it?