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Old Mar 05, 2012, 06:00 AM
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Originally Posted by My kids are cool View Post
I guess I'm easily confused on this issue, because my "parts" are so very separate. I accept responsibility for all of my actions, but for someone to just dismiss the possibility that the human brain can completely separate out parts, is ill informed.

Just to tell you my experience, when I was five years old, I couldn't find my tennis shoes. My mother decided she was going to lock me in my room and beat me every 15 minutes until I found the shoes. She would set the timer for 15 minutes and then leave the room to let me look for the shoes. But, I couldn't find those damn shoes anywhere in the room. So, instead of looking, after a while, I was just totally panicked and wedged myself in a tiny area next to the dresser and sobbed. After a few minutes of that, I felt a tearing --- kind of a weird, sucking, tearing sensation in my head. Suddenly, there was a new voice in my head with me telling me to get off my a-s-s and start looking for the g.d. shoes before I got us both beaten. So, I'm crying and sobbing and crawling across the floor, but at least I was moving and looking for the shoes.

So, please don't be so dismissive of the possibility that some of us really do have a five year old kid trapped in our head, or a foul mouthed, abusive s.o.b. constantly berating us trapped in our heads.
This broke my heart...mother used to send me on *looking games* a lot too...
and Ive had a 7 yr old pop in out of nowhere and she is NOT like me...she is 7, shes terrified. she is always shaking and crying..
I mean I know its "me" but..its just not the regular me and I cant control when shes out...
Thanks for sharing this...Im so incredibly sorry you had to do that hun, nobody should have to deal with such abuse.

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But do you hear different voices in your head telling you what you should be doing at different times? I don't think I mean an altered sense of perception (or do I lack insight) but just my own voice I guess telling me how awful I am, telling me to harm myself or conversely calming me and telling me it is Ok I can do x,y,z, don't listen to that other stuff, etc... - where do these come from? Is this what everyone experiences? How can 1 solid "me" have such different opinions about things.
I dont hear voices...but I do things that are totally out of character for regular me. Ive tried to explain this before..its like liking tuna fish and suddnely hating it and sudddenly thinking its disgusting and then u go back to tuna fish again a few days later. Only instead of tuna fish....its everything you believe, and your actions and the way you dress...poticial views..just everything...
and it makes no sense. When you get back....you cant relate to what is essentially "yourself"....I have been struggling with these things for a long time, I dont know what it is..but its so hard and terribly terribly confusing.
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