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Originally Posted by shoez
This broke my heart...mother used to send me on *looking games* a lot too...
and Ive had a 7 yr old pop in out of nowhere and she is NOT like me...she is 7, shes terrified. she is always shaking and crying..
I mean I know its "me" but..its just not the regular me and I cant control when shes out...
Thanks for sharing this...Im so incredibly sorry you had to do that hun, nobody should have to deal with such abuse. 
I dont hear voices...but I do things that are totally out of character for regular me. Ive tried to explain this before..its like liking tuna fish and suddnely hating it and sudddenly thinking its disgusting and then u go back to tuna fish again a few days later. Only instead of tuna fish....its everything you believe, and your actions and the way you dress...poticial views..just everything...
and it makes no sense. When you get back....you cant relate to what is essentially "yourself"....I have been struggling with these things for a long time, I dont know what it is..but its so hard and terribly terribly confusing. |
I have pretty much a constant narrative in my head checking things out and telling me what to do next - I assume they are just regular thoughts, but it is impossible to really know someone elses experience isn't it?
I have been described as fickle in the past, I can jump from one thing to another and sometimes my views will change about something and I am not sure why that has happened.
It really feels like my head is trying so hard to work this out for itself and I am feeling exhausted - I am trying to think what my T would say to me if I was churning out all these thoughts and confusions right now - and I think he would ask me to notice my body, what was happening in it, any sensations, what they looked like etc...so think I need to do that now.
Parts vs No parts
Ultimately I guess we will all accept that which fits best for us and helps explain our experience to us and gives us a direction to work towards in achievieng whatever goals we have.
Soup
