Dear T,
I am sorry for being such a resistant pain-in-the-*** last session. You are so patient with me. I don't know how you do it some weeks. While I am spiraling down you are calmly talking to me. I am listening even though it might look like I am off in some other place.

I don't know how to control my downward spiral once it starts. I want your help with that. I am ready to admit I have it. I can't change the fact that I have this, but I can manage it. I am excited and really scared to tell you this on Thursday. I've never admitted to this. This is a big step in my trusting you. I know we can't move forward until I accept where I am right now. I don't want to be stuck like this forever.
Me.