It's Monday morning, 8:03, and T called. She must have called as soon as she listened to my message.

She said she was gone Friday and didn't know what time I called and left the message. I told her I figured that out by being sneaky and calling the office to reschedule an appointment. She asked what appointment it was and was concerned (?) that I had only rescheduled and not cancelled. She said, "I'm glad you got it scheduled and can see me every week."

She said it was"absolutely okay" for me to call and I was having a bad day. I said I am feeling very sad and I don't know where that is coming from. She said something about endorphins and brain chemistry and how everything around us is okay but we are feeling bad.

She checked to see that I am scheduled for Thursday. And that was it.

Why am I feeling worse now? I should be reassured, right? I feel vulnerable and I don't like it.