Good point stopdog, I had to go back and look at some of them to check. We really don't email that much (well, I email more often then he emails back... sometimes he just waits and asks me about it in session) and when he does email back it's usually short and to the point so- thanks for making me realize that. It's probably just where my mind is at right now and the fear that I opened up to him. I used to have a friend/mentor that would tell me if I ever became too reliant on him, he would leave because it wasnt right- so I am so scared of letting anyone know I attach to them, that they would leave if I did.