You're depressed and then you are being emotionally abused in therapy. Sorry. You don't need that. If a patient doesn't get better, it is too easy for the therapist to blame the patient. Like that is going to help.

You have the right to interpret your own childhood. If you don't think it was the cause of depression, then you actually could be right. They are grasping for straws trying to find a reason to the point they create a reason.

We're not all born the same. Some people are actually born with a sensitivity to mood problems. I don't know how many meds you tried, but I tried a lot and the ones working were far down the list unfortunately. Maybe you need to spend your time with a good doctor finding a new med, instead of wasting time on a therapist that only makes you mad?