Pushing is really hard with severe depression. When I was there I had no energy at all. It was like I was sick and demented. Yea I pushed and pushed hard and no one saw it. But thing is what I pushed for was getting out of bed, into a chair, going to the bathroom, eating, keeping myself alive. People think those things take no energy. How wrong they are. So yea, I really worked hard and no one saw it, I was just "lazy" although, comparing to now, just eating and going to the bathroom was harder then than a full day at work is today.

So people can sure stuff it.