I am a bit cheezed off at your doctor. It feels to me like he was trying to force your hand by denying your meds so you would HAVE to go to this place you don't want to go to. This to me seems underhanded and rotten. I feel it is wrong to deny the meds when everywhere we hear not to stop them cold turkey because it can mess you up. Isn't that a little wrong to put you in that situation? I sorry if I am coming on so strong about it but I think the medical profession should work with us to create our own path to health rather then to ram their path down our throats. We are more likely to become healthy if we are treated with respect and shown how to take possitive action for ourselves rather then being treated like...well you know...and forced into a situation we don't want to go into. It sounds so much like the earlier abuse we have put up with and continues to place us in the victim role. Please call your counsoler and get her to back you up and be your advocate. If she believes you are in danger, work with her to devise a plan of action so you can bring yourself back to a place of strength.
Carrie

<font color=green>But the implicit and usually unconscious bargain we make with ourselves is that, yes, we want to be healed, we want to be made whole, we're willing to go some distance, but we're not willing to question the fundamental assumptions upon which our way of life has been built, both personally and societally.--Bill Plotkin, Soulcraft