I couldn't and without meds I wouldn't have had a life today.

I tried and I wanted to. I just couldn't. I think it's probably hard for someone to fathom those depths of depression, but you only have one brain. You don't have one external brain to tell you what to do and a sick one to follow. You only have one. If it can't tell this from that, how can you do anything right?

No one can take away the pride I have for surviving. I doubt many people would have survived what I did. If I could have pushed harder, I would have.

I'm not a weak person. I just had a huge problem. (No, life isn't easy for anyone, it's not for me still. Yet I'm so much better off. I can function. Then, I couldn't even count to 20 and I didn't know where I lived..... )

Who is going to drag you out of bed you ask? Well.. people who totally lack help in that situation I was in.. they don't get better because they "have to". I know that is a grim thought, but it's true.