Would it help to know that you are not alone? I see my T as my mother. She knows I pretend she is. My T has also said on many occasions that I am a surrogate daughter to her. At the same time, I have sexual feelings for her. I feel terrible because we often cuddle. I wonder if she'd allow me to be so close to her if she knew how I felt. One time I had to pull away from her because I felt so aroused. I'm actually bisexual so having feelings for a woman does not disturb me. What does disturb me is having essentially incestuous feelings. People say on here that we should bring these feelings up no matter what, but I disagree. Just as you have legitimate reasons not to, so do I. It would change everything between us. I try to tell myself that I feel those feelings because I lack intimacy in my life. I know I'm not really attracted to her. I know the mother feelings are much deeper. I had hoped the feelings would decrease over time but they actually have grown. I dont know what to do but I know I won't tell her. I have some comfort in knowing that at least my feelings are common to those who are in therapy, though they are kind of sick.