I'm sorry that you were cancelled on too Healed. It really is a let down. You spend all the time waiting and waiting to feel 'safe' in their office and then it's taken away from you. It sucks. I'm really sorry that you're here too today.

I have another appointment later this week - I go twice a week - but, it just seems like forever right now. I really needed some sense of safety or something today, I don't know.

Wanting - I deal with some of the same things and SI is always the first thing I think of, but I haven't done it in awhile. Days like today, when i just wish I didn't wake up, and when my T cancels, make me want to go back to that though. I usually write as well. Today, though, I can't seem to get my mind straight enough to even do that.

Thank you for all the comfort though. It is making my feel a little less alone.