Thank you everyone that responded, it helps me feel welcomed here at PsychCentral

I'm sorry to hear its a mystery to some of you too, who have been in therapy awhile. I will try however my T wants to do this.. it doesnt seem logical to me that things will change if I spend my sessions crying and feeling utterly horrid -- but I just dont know how its to be done. I worry if I can handle the stress. I see her on Friday and hopefully some of the mystery as to how to sit with the pain will unravel and I'll feel a bit more hope-full than miserable than I felt when I left her office the last time. I will keep you updated. Thank you so much, again, for caring & reaching out to me.