Kras, I have felt your frustration about the pills and the rest. You need to control what you say and how you say it. If you don't, they will continue prescribing the pills for you, I believe. You need to contain your emotions and deal with them in a non destructive and non threatening way. G'luck to you kras, your not the first, I was where you are now. I have a good life now, and am without anti psychotic meds with docs approval.