I just joined a few minutes ago and came across this thread. To all of you - this thread is so beautiful and moving. I relate to so much of what has been said.

I have the overwhelming urge to be friends with all of you. Don't laugh - it's true! I want to reach out to and be reached out to in turn by such lovely people. I don't know how to explain the feeling(s). I have been struggling, and feel desperately lonely. I feel like here, maybe...

Improving - I feel the same way about labels, and have mostly avoided therapists for half of my life (after trying a few that were all hopeless, and one a few years back). I am trying to steel myself to call and set up an appointment with someone who can hopefully help me this time around. I don't think I can do it by myself anymore. Too much has happened in the last few years, and I no longer have the strength to fight battles on so many fronts.